Searching Sincerity

Random. Kott. Takdelah random sangat.

I like stage performances.

But there's one little question.

Sincere or not?

Like if someone acts as a person who have sinned a lot,

and now, wants to repent, regret their actions..

Do that person feel the act? Or is it just pure acting?

Like if someone sings a song,

A song that reminds us of the right path,

The right way of life,

Do that person feel the meaning of the song,

Try to convey the message to the audience,

Or just sing to say "Hey, I've got a nice voice".

Like when competing,

Do we want to just win,

Or strive for the benefits of the competition?

Like when a friend sarcastically tell you off,

When you did something wrong,

Is it a friend's love,

Or a friend loving to hurt you?

Like when sorry is uttered,

Is it seeking apology,

Or seeking for an easy way out?

Honestly, I don't know what's in other's heart.

But the best I can do,

Is Husnuzh Zhan.

Positive Thinking.

Berbaik Sangka.

O you who believed, avoid much (negative) assumption.

Indeed, some assumption is sin.

And do not spy or backbite each other.

Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother?

You would detest it. And fear Allah, indeed, Allah is Accepting of repentance and Merciful.

Al Hujurat : 12

But as a reminder to everyone and myself,

Say, "Indeed, my prayer, my sacrifice,

my living and my dying are only for Allah,

the Lord of all that exists".

Al An'am : 162

As Kak Kira often remind me,

"Teach our heart to do everything for Allah" (:

Sincerity is beautiful.

Kid Again

Princess. Heheh. Comel kan comel kan?

Ni tade keje namenye. :D

Many had said to me, "Rose, grow up la!". That made me thought, "Am I too childish?". Well, I agree, we have to grow up, many decision have to be made everyday.

2 years old;

"Ma.. I'm a princess!"

I wanted to be a princess.

Live in a castle happily ever after with her prince.

What's a princess?

She's that pretty happy girl in that castle.

I'm 18 years 5 months and 8 days;

What's your major?

Actuarial Science.

What's that?

Actuarial Science is .......... lengthy explaination

Ohh. Oh. Emm. Ok. Why? Where? Why there? Bla Bla Bla?

Isn't that tiring?

Obviously, it is.

I still wanna be a princess. (:

I liked it when I was a kid

I've grown up now. I do think like a grown up. seriously owh

I just want a break, to feel like I'm a kid again.

Is that wrong?

I know I have responsibilities,

as a muslim, as a child,

as a sister, as a human being.

But pretty please,

let me be me. :D

:))

I liked the creative fair.

I had so much fun. :D

I needed a break. So did you. Those paintings were awesome.

France Awaits You

I really wanted to join you in KLIA, Jani.
But then, time doesnt really permit. I'm in JB.
However, I do wish you all well from here.
I'll take care of your 'kawan' okay?
Ahaha. I looked through his sister's pictures.
He going away, smartly dressed, to France, already.
It made me secretly anticipate my turn.
But now it's no more a secret. Haha!
And that, will be two more years.
Be patient Syiqa. (:
Jani, have fun and take care.
I'll be praying for you, in fact, for all of us.
Never forget, amigos para sempre.






p/s : when my time comes, i hope you'll be there. and i hope he'll be there too. im prayin for us, dude. (: for us and US.

Taiko Rose Alia !

Alia Azhar itu taiko yang kononnya artis.

Ahaha. Dia kawan baru saya. Takdelah baru sangat.
Dia kata dia taiko. Tapi suara budak kecik macam bukan taiko.
Ahahaha. Tapi kalau tanya dia, dia mesti cakap, " ini taiko ok ! "
Hahahaha. Comel lah kawan saya ni.
Hari ni hari jadi dia. Baru 16 tahun. Budak sekolah. Hahaha.
Nak bagi hadiah tak boleh lah. Takde duit.
Nak bagi kek tak boleh. Nanti cair sampai Melaka.

So, Rose Alia, this post is your birthday prezie from me.
* awww. terharu tak? hihihihihi. ;)

Have a blast baby! It's your day! Smile all the wayy!




cake untuk budak budak


hadiah. kosong je dalam tu. jgn risau. x)


ohh yea,
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY ! (:

p/s : post ikhlas untuk jimat duit. (: ahahaha.

Feeling The Same, Jessy =)

I read Jessy's blog, about how much she misses us. And I though, yeah, I feel the same. So, here it goes.

I MISS YOU!!

ABG ADAM!
adek really miss how we can easily spend time together at kolej. how i cud just cry my heart out whenever i need you. and how simple it was cause i didn't have to tell you wen i was upset, u just know. and i missed our super fun time practising for performances. and how we used to fight over small stuff. then, we will be okay after just a while cause i will pujuk, cause only i can tahan with all ur perangai. haha. well, ur so far away now. i just want you to know i miss you a lot, abg. really.

KAK AIN!
it has been a long time since i last spoke to you. i remembered calling you, crying. and you reminded me that i have to focus on spm. =) yes, ur d study type kakak. heheh. but thats gud advice. and i did make it through. i actually remember how close we were, and then we kinda drift apart. u and ur responsibilities, and me growing up with a lot nonsense. but i do miss all that sis. wish to meet you soon. =)

WANA!
u use to be really close. i meant just a few steps away before i can annoy u with my stories. haha. how u will always say, rose, jgn pk sgt ape org rase, kite kena pk diri sendiri jugak. haha. how u were always there for me at wutever time. how u will be by my side at my ups and downs. how we used to menggile at the field! haha. how i thought u how to swim, and u did it! heheh. u understand me at an instant cause we always feel the same way. and how we can just glance at each other, and laugh cause we know, we are both annoyed at that time, without having to say a word! haha. well wana, i hope we'll meet soon. btw, my stuff are still at ur house. =D

LEELA!
i rather speak malay with this gurlie. haha. aku sgt2 rindu kegilaan kau especially bile kau slalu ckp, "aku tau kau syg aku kn rose?" haha. aku nk deny tp aku tak reti tpu. so ckp je la, "ye..aku syg kau". haha. kau la kawan yg akan bg tau aku baek n buruk. bg kau, yg penting, kau ikhlas nk tlg aku. walaupun kau nye hati laen ngn aku, kau tetap memahami aku. sayang gile ah kau. dengan zaman2 netball yg sgt best. and outing yg aku tak penah jalan ngn org laen. haha. and bile kau teman aku shopping. haha. harap2 dpt jumpe kt sunway nnt k?

JESSY!
i can't deny that i really2 miss you. i'm the eldest at home now, with a really fragile, sensitive heart. sometimes i feel so stressed up, and i can't let my adek see me cry. so i have to hide under the pillow to cry my heart out. not as easy as if ur around. i remember i used to not care whether ur holding a book or already sleeping. i'll just come and cry. =D hee. and u'll wipe my tears away, remind me to be strong. i really miss you jess. i wish i cud tell u evrythin im feelin. but ur so far away now. =(

ZATIE!
rindu sgt kegilaan kau. haha. i noe u always noe wen im sad or rly happy. yela, bedmate kn. i rly miss u t. i still rmember hw we used to push each other to study, then, reward ourselves with movie. =D and uv always been my doctor. i shud recommend u to scholarshp bodies. haha. wen i luke kaki tu, wen i had muscle cramps, wen i was sick, wen i had tummy aches. ur always there for me. dengan 100+ and botol2 ECPI kau. haha. i miss how u wud just tell me evrything about this guy, and then i'll get cnfuse wic guy. haha. i miss u babe.. the first thing i'll do wen i meet u, is hug u tight!

QASYA!
i still remember, "tebalkan muka, pekakkn telinga, and njoy je hdup!". haha. we have many memories together, mostly all crazy stuff. haha. well, i started off annoyed with u, but ended up close. i noe sumtyms i disagree wif wut u do, but we both noe that we are crazy teens excited to grow up. haha. thx for always bein there. and for teaching me hw to play guitar hero smpai ngantok. and bein with me at tears and joy. hee. miss u babe.

RIF!
u noe i miss our time together ryt? all d fights at the studio, that actually brought us closer. i rmmberd how i can easily giv u a smile. now its quite hard kn? i rmmbered hw u used to make me laugh with ur acts. haha. and how we used to laugh together. and how u played the guitar for me. and sing a lot though u keep singing the same songs. haha. well arif, theres a lot more. but i'll be happier to let it stay in our mind. =)

ET!
akak rindu la spend time ngn awak. tengok awak maen guitar. haha. and tgkp gmbr poyo awak senyap2. haha. akak rndu gak borak2 ngn awk. lepak kat tgge kejayaan pstu kantoi ngn pak mus. haha. panggil awak ayam. haha. wlupon kite bru je rpt, akak rse mcm da lame. haha. well, c u soon adek.

SYAF!
akak tau kite da rpt dr syaf form one, tp akak yg slalu kerek. tp last yr was a great year. wlupon kite byk gado gk kn. akak rndu ah lepak ngn syaf, maen cabut tali kasut. haha. borak2 psl fmily. maen piano. haha. banyak la kn. harap2 we'll meet soon k?

well, evryone close to me knows that i care for many. so i can't list down everyone. but everyone has made my life better. tak kesa la yg mengutuk or yg tak penah kutuk.

i rly miss all of u. =)