Dilemma Again

I'm in a dilemma.
So what to do?
I talked to my close friends.
But I'm sooo grateful to have friends who are able to console me,
But in the same time, they say,
Go istikharah.

Who knows better than Him?
No one.

Jadi kalau pening kepala,
Mengadu lah kat Dia.

Thank you my friends for reminding me.

Allah please show me the way.

Be Grateful

I've not posted anything for so long.
I hope this post will be beneficial for myself and others, insyaAllah.

SPM results! :O

I remember last year, I took my driving test on the same day when SPM results was announced. I hoped that I will pass my test, and have enough time to speed drive to Melaka, be with my friends, and get 11A+.

So, what really happened was,
I failed my test at around 12 pm.
I reached Melaka around 3.30 pm.
I didn't get 11A+ but well, it was good enough.
None of my batchmates was there when I arrived.
Nothing that I wanted, happened.

You can't always get what you want,
You get what you need.
Have faith, believe, that
He knows what is best for you.

We find it hard to see a silver lining,
We thought that what we wanted was the best He could give,
We must remember that often,
What we want,
Might not be good for us.

"...But perhaps you hate a thing
and it is good for you,
And perhaps you love a thing
and it is bad for you,
And Allah knows, while you know not."
"...Boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu
padahal itu baik bagimu,
Dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu
padahal itu tidak baik bagimu,
Allah Mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
Al Baqarah : 216

Because only by acceptance and gratefulness,
that we are able to move forward,
Allah will always help those who are grateful and who believe.

"What will Allah do with your punishment,
if you are grateful and believe?
And ever Allah Appreciative and Knowing."
"Allah tidak akan menyiksamu,
jika kamu bersyukur dan beriman.
Dan Allah Maha Mensyukuri, Maha Mengetahui.
An Nisa' : 147

That true happiness awaits those who believe.

"Allah extends provision for whom He wills and restricts it.
And they rejoice in the wordly life,
while the worldly life is not,
compared to the Hereafter,
except brief enjoyment"
"Allah melapangkan rezeki bagi sesiapa yang Dia Kehendaki,
dan Membatasi (bagi sesiapa yang Dia Kehendaki).
Mereka bergembira dengan kehidupan dunia,
padahal dunia hanyalah kesenangan yang sedikit,
dibanding kehidupan akhirat."
Ar Ra'd : 26

And if you ever feel demoralized or sad,
Remember the purpose of life,
And you'll realize,
That whatever problem you are having is very small.
On top of it all,
Remember Allah.

"...Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah,
hearts are assured. "
"...Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah,
hati menjadi tenteram."
Ar Ra'd : 28

Whatever happened, happens, or will happen, in your life,
Good or bad, BE GRATEFUL.
There's a reason why Allah made it that way.
Search for that reason.

Because as long as you seek for truth,
As long as you have faith in Allah,
As long as you remember Him,
True happiness awaits you.
And the wait itself, is true happiness.

How many mornings have you seen since you were born?
And if you can read this, you've just seen another morning!
Alhamdulillah! :D

Allah has given us so much,
How much have we done?


At those moments that you're trying to stay calm,
Simple actions just triggers your anger,
And you snap!

So yeah, that was what happened.

I didn't explode at the trigger though.
I tried my best to control my anger.
And because of that, I walked faster,
Back to my chalet.

But I just had to tell it off to someone.
I just had to let the volcano erupt .
And ohhh yes it erupted!

But that wasn't for long.
For He was always there.
And through a close friend of mine,
I was reminded,
About patience.

"And hasten to forgiveness from your Lord
And a garden as wide as the Heavens and Earth,
Prepared for the righteous.
Who spend (in the cause of Allah),
During ease and hardship,
And who restrain anger,
And who pardon the people,
And Allah loves the doers of good."
Al Imran : 133-134

And with those words of Allah,
I was consoled.
And tears rushed out,
Full of regret.

Betapa Dia masih menunjukkan aku jalan. Walaupun aku sering lupa. Subahanallah.

There's a Reason

Yesterday two people asked me,
"You want to go to US. So, why are you here doing A Levels?"

Obviously, they weren't the only two who had asked me that.
Frankly, sometimes I ask myself.

Okay, here's what I tell myself, when myself asked me the same question.
"You had a choice and your heart said KY. Back then, you weren't sure why.
As things get harder, life gets busier, studies gets more out of hand, you get more confused of why.
But look at you, you might not be what you are now, if you didn't choose KY.
You might not be who you are, if you didn't get the scholarship.
You might not be who you are now, if you chose TKC and not KYS.
Life is full of choices, you made your choice.
This might be a tougher path, but because you're able to do it, you chose those roads, this road.
Remember, Allah tak akan membebankan seseorang dengan apa yang tidak mampu dia tanggung.
You've made the right choice. There are things planned for you as you walk through this path.
You just have to be strong and search for it, don't waste the chance."

You know, it might be an easier path,
if I don't have to juggle my SATs and A Levels
together with the hectic KY life, ohh not to forget, in the middle of nowhere.
But maybe if that path was the path I chose,
I learn less, I take life for granted, I take Islam for granted.
I'm not syaing that that path my friends are on is easier than the path that I'm on.
I'm sure they too are learning about life, just like me.
But I believe that this is the best path for me.
As long as I choose to do things right,
InsyaAllah, I'll be a better person.

Everyone have their own opinion.
Their own thoughts.
Sometimes their right, and I'm wrong.
But I'll stick with my believe in this case.
I'm here for many reasons,
I've found part of it,
And along the way,
I'll keep on searching.

There's more than just A Levels here.

I believe He gave me the best. And I'm grateful.