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Ok, dah lama sangat tak update blog ni.
Mungkin sibuk, atau mungkin takde idea dah nak update apa.
Rasa macam nak delete blog,
Tapi sayang pada post2 yang lalu.

Maybe this is the last post in this blog.
I'm just keeping the blog for my own future reference.
But maybe one day I'll make a new one.


Tested (:

Most of us know, AS/A Level results was out last Thursday,
All praise to Allah, I was given what I dreamed of. Alhamdulillah.

That day,
Most of us smiled a lot,
But behind some of those smiles,
They hid tears to stay strong.
Even if I try to calm them down,
Some may say,
"You don't know how we feel".

The next day, was IELTS results, for us who did it in July.
All praise to Allah, I got a good band.
But my writing component wasn't good enough.

That moment,
I cried,
It wasn't that easy to accept,
Maybe now I know how it felt.

I realise that everything was a test from Allah,
Both the nikmat and the musibah.
Both tested me on my faith in Allah, my dependence to Allah.
Whether I remember that I should thank Allah,
And whether I remember that Allah knows best.
Everything that happens, happened because He allowed it to take place.
No wonder people always say,
The best weapon a muslim own is DOA,
Because one day Allah will grant it. (:

"Only those who are strong enough to bear the test, are tested"
I should be grateful that I am one of them.

One thing for sure,
As long as I remember,
That Allah is always near,
I'll be okay.

Thanks Allah,
I have You, a great family, and awesome friends. (:
Allah is so sweet, he tested us because He love us and He help us go through the test.

With that,
Everything just got so much easier.

Losing Grip

Once you may feel so happy,
Life was perfect cause you can feel it,
That He was everywhere with you.

The busy world fools you,
Pulls you away from Him,
And all you do is let it be?

Lemahnya manusia,
Tapi tak mengapa,
Selagi hati mengingati Dia,
Jangan kita berputus asa.

That you, is me.
Now I'mma search for it back,
Cause life's empty without faith.

May Allah be with us! (:


Look around. People are changing.
The quiet talks more now.
The short grew taller.
The kid now mature.
The child now a stranger.

PARENTS. They went through a lot just to raise us.
And naturally, knowing it or not, sometimes we make it harder.
We started off clinging on to them, very close.
We cried if they leave us or let us go.
Then we met our friends at school,
So we play more with friends than them.
We grow older and lock ourselves in our rooms,
or nowadays we block them from our facebook, privacy we say.
Then we went through love and breakups,
And we tell them not a single thing.
Leaving them clueless.
Then we wanted a driving license,
So we asked for their money to get one,
And when we've had it,
We drive anywhere we want, anytime,
Leaving home more often while our parents secretly pray,
Ohh please bring my child back home.

Keredhaan Allah terletak pada keredhaan ibu bapa,
Kemurkaan Allah terletak pada kemurkaan ibu bapa.
[Hadis Sahih]

Do we still remember them?
Or are we now sinking in the pleasures of the world,
Forgetting that there is one thing that's important.
Taat kepada ibu bapa, selagi tidak melibatkan maksiat.
Jangan biarkan mereka bersedih kerana kita.

"Dan setiap umat mempunyai ajal dan batas waktu.
Apabila ajalnya tiba, mereka tidak dapat meminta penangguhan
atau percepatan sesaat pun."

Do we want to wait until it's too late?
For we know not when we will leave this world.

My papa always say,
"Come back to basics,"
And for me, that means come back to where we come from;
Allah, our creator. And Family.
Ya Allah, please guide me.

Beruntungnya kita masih ada ibu bapa,
Sangat ruginya kalau kita lupa kewujudan mereka.
Minta dijauhi.

Devil Wears Prada

Everything you watch or see or read or observe,
You can learn from it.
Bring back the good stuff to ponder upon.
Leave out the unnecessary.

So, from Devil Wears Prada,
i know it's an old movie but we've just re-watched it during IELTS

In life, you always always always have a choice.
and that choice is yours to make.
If you think you've said too much of "but, i dont have a choice!"
You were wrong. You do.
So, make the right choices.

True, there might be a phase, where you just couldn't see.
But pray that you'll always be guided,
So that eventually you will.

Have we been making the right choices?

Think about it.

May we have chosen the right way of life
as we have been given the chance to be part of it.

Let's Get Rewarded! :D

I was watching a video and was inspired by a story told in the video. (:

“There was a guy who was very poor, and one day he felt very sad for he had no food to feed his wife and son. So he went to the mosque and cried so bad. The imam of the mosque saw him and knew his troubles, so he brought him to a river, and asked him to perform a 2 rakaat prayer, and then in the name of Allah, throw his net into the river.

With Allah the Almighty’s power, he caught a big fish. So he went to the market to sell it, and bought a loaf of bread to bring home to his family. He was very happy then, but on his way home, he saw a mother and her son who was starving, just like his own wife and son at home. He suddenly looked at them like his own wife and son, and so he gave the loaf of bread to them. The little boy smiled, while the mother cried.

The guy went home, with nothing for his family. But then someone knocked on his door and asked for him. They gave him money and told him that it was his late father’s money, which they borrowed when he was alive. So that guy praised Allah that he could now feed his family, and he became rich that he could give 1000 dinar at a time for charity.

One night, he dreamt of Hari Kiamat. Where his name was called, and his deeds was counted. His evil doings weighs so much heavier than his good deeds which weighted like a bundle of cottons, it turned out to be that his charities wasn’t sincere so it was worth so little.

Then the angels asked him, do you have anything else to offer. It turned out that the only thing he could offer was the little loaf of bread he gave to the mother and her son, and that small deed made his good deeds weigh so much more, but it still wasn’t enough.

Then he was asked again, do you have anything else to offer? It turned out that what is left is the little boy’s smile, which made his good deeds and evil doings balanced.

Then he was asked again, do you have anything else to offer? It turned out that the mother’s tears are as heavy as an ocean of tears and so his good deeds outweigh his evil doings.

And then he was told that he was saved from the suffering of the Hell. At that moment, he thanked Allah swt The Rewarder for rewarding him with the loaf of bread and for saving him from the Hell-fire.”


Allah will reward our good deeds even if it is so small as small as half a date or a weight of an atom. That little deed he did outweighs thousands of dinar he gave away for charity. So why do we seek for reward from human being, when He promised reward for even the smallest thing we do?

Mathematically, we know that any number in ratio with an infinite number approaches zero. Whatever happiness that we get now, whatever wealth that we own, whatever reward that people award us, whatever love, money, bungalows or Ferrari, in ratio to Allah’s Paradise that He promised to reward us with, is zero. Because what Allah give is so much than we can ever imagine.

So give, sincerely, and Allah The Rewarder will reward us.

Sometimes while doing good deeds to increase our rewards we may commit a sin or we have committed many before and so sometimes we doubt that Allah will appreciate our good deeds. But remember that Allah is Forgiving, Appreciative. Rest assured that he will forgive and appreciate your good deeds. So seek for His forgiveness and do good deeds in the name of Allah.

What are you waiting for? Let's get rewarded! :D

Inspired by the video;

Allah is Al Shakour,

Ever-Thankful and The Supreme Rewarder.

Dilemma Again

I'm in a dilemma.
So what to do?
I talked to my close friends.
But I'm sooo grateful to have friends who are able to console me,
But in the same time, they say,
Go istikharah.

Who knows better than Him?
No one.

Jadi kalau pening kepala,
Mengadu lah kat Dia.

Thank you my friends for reminding me.

Allah please show me the way.

Be Grateful

I've not posted anything for so long.
I hope this post will be beneficial for myself and others, insyaAllah.

SPM results! :O

I remember last year, I took my driving test on the same day when SPM results was announced. I hoped that I will pass my test, and have enough time to speed drive to Melaka, be with my friends, and get 11A+.

So, what really happened was,
I failed my test at around 12 pm.
I reached Melaka around 3.30 pm.
I didn't get 11A+ but well, it was good enough.
None of my batchmates was there when I arrived.
Nothing that I wanted, happened.

You can't always get what you want,
You get what you need.
Have faith, believe, that
He knows what is best for you.

We find it hard to see a silver lining,
We thought that what we wanted was the best He could give,
We must remember that often,
What we want,
Might not be good for us.

"...But perhaps you hate a thing
and it is good for you,
And perhaps you love a thing
and it is bad for you,
And Allah knows, while you know not."
"...Boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu
padahal itu baik bagimu,
Dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu
padahal itu tidak baik bagimu,
Allah Mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
Al Baqarah : 216

Because only by acceptance and gratefulness,
that we are able to move forward,
Allah will always help those who are grateful and who believe.

"What will Allah do with your punishment,
if you are grateful and believe?
And ever Allah Appreciative and Knowing."
"Allah tidak akan menyiksamu,
jika kamu bersyukur dan beriman.
Dan Allah Maha Mensyukuri, Maha Mengetahui.
An Nisa' : 147

That true happiness awaits those who believe.

"Allah extends provision for whom He wills and restricts it.
And they rejoice in the wordly life,
while the worldly life is not,
compared to the Hereafter,
except brief enjoyment"
"Allah melapangkan rezeki bagi sesiapa yang Dia Kehendaki,
dan Membatasi (bagi sesiapa yang Dia Kehendaki).
Mereka bergembira dengan kehidupan dunia,
padahal dunia hanyalah kesenangan yang sedikit,
dibanding kehidupan akhirat."
Ar Ra'd : 26

And if you ever feel demoralized or sad,
Remember the purpose of life,
And you'll realize,
That whatever problem you are having is very small.
On top of it all,
Remember Allah.

"...Unquestionably, by the remembrance of Allah,
hearts are assured. "
"...Ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingati Allah,
hati menjadi tenteram."
Ar Ra'd : 28

Whatever happened, happens, or will happen, in your life,
Good or bad, BE GRATEFUL.
There's a reason why Allah made it that way.
Search for that reason.

Because as long as you seek for truth,
As long as you have faith in Allah,
As long as you remember Him,
True happiness awaits you.
And the wait itself, is true happiness.

How many mornings have you seen since you were born?
And if you can read this, you've just seen another morning!
Alhamdulillah! :D

Allah has given us so much,
How much have we done?


At those moments that you're trying to stay calm,
Simple actions just triggers your anger,
And you snap!

So yeah, that was what happened.

I didn't explode at the trigger though.
I tried my best to control my anger.
And because of that, I walked faster,
Back to my chalet.

But I just had to tell it off to someone.
I just had to let the volcano erupt .
And ohhh yes it erupted!

But that wasn't for long.
For He was always there.
And through a close friend of mine,
I was reminded,
About patience.

"And hasten to forgiveness from your Lord
And a garden as wide as the Heavens and Earth,
Prepared for the righteous.
Who spend (in the cause of Allah),
During ease and hardship,
And who restrain anger,
And who pardon the people,
And Allah loves the doers of good."
Al Imran : 133-134

And with those words of Allah,
I was consoled.
And tears rushed out,
Full of regret.

Betapa Dia masih menunjukkan aku jalan. Walaupun aku sering lupa. Subahanallah.

There's a Reason

Yesterday two people asked me,
"You want to go to US. So, why are you here doing A Levels?"

Obviously, they weren't the only two who had asked me that.
Frankly, sometimes I ask myself.

Okay, here's what I tell myself, when myself asked me the same question.
"You had a choice and your heart said KY. Back then, you weren't sure why.
As things get harder, life gets busier, studies gets more out of hand, you get more confused of why.
But look at you, you might not be what you are now, if you didn't choose KY.
You might not be who you are, if you didn't get the scholarship.
You might not be who you are now, if you chose TKC and not KYS.
Life is full of choices, you made your choice.
This might be a tougher path, but because you're able to do it, you chose those roads, this road.
Remember, Allah tak akan membebankan seseorang dengan apa yang tidak mampu dia tanggung.
You've made the right choice. There are things planned for you as you walk through this path.
You just have to be strong and search for it, don't waste the chance."

You know, it might be an easier path,
if I don't have to juggle my SATs and A Levels
together with the hectic KY life, ohh not to forget, in the middle of nowhere.
But maybe if that path was the path I chose,
I learn less, I take life for granted, I take Islam for granted.
I'm not syaing that that path my friends are on is easier than the path that I'm on.
I'm sure they too are learning about life, just like me.
But I believe that this is the best path for me.
As long as I choose to do things right,
InsyaAllah, I'll be a better person.

Everyone have their own opinion.
Their own thoughts.
Sometimes their right, and I'm wrong.
But I'll stick with my believe in this case.
I'm here for many reasons,
I've found part of it,
And along the way,
I'll keep on searching.

There's more than just A Levels here.

I believe He gave me the best. And I'm grateful.

Searching Sincerity

Random. Kott. Takdelah random sangat.

I like stage performances.
But there's one little question.
Sincere or not?

Like if someone acts as a person who have sinned a lot,
and now, wants to repent, regret their actions..
Do that person feel the act? Or is it just pure acting?

Like if someone sings a song,
A song that reminds us of the right path,
The right way of life,
Do that person feel the meaning of the song,
Try to convey the message to the audience,
Or just sing to say "Hey, I've got a nice voice".

Like when competing,
Do we want to just win,
Or strive for the benefits of the competition?

Like when a friend sarcastically tell you off,
When you did something wrong,
Is it a friend's love,
Or a friend loving to hurt you?

Like when sorry is uttered,
Is it seeking apology,
Or seeking for an easy way out?

Honestly, I don't know what's in other's heart.
But the best I can do,
Is Husnuzh Zhan.
Positive Thinking.
Berbaik Sangka.

O you who believed, avoid much (negative) assumption.
Indeed, some assumption is sin.
And do not spy or backbite each other.
Would one of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother?
You would detest it. And fear Allah, indeed, Allah is Accepting of repentance and Merciful.
Al Hujurat : 12

But as a reminder to everyone and myself,

Say, "Indeed, my prayer, my sacrifice,
my living and my dying are only for Allah,
the Lord of all that exists".
Al An'am : 162

As Kak Kira often remind me,
"Teach our heart to do everything for Allah" (:

Sincerity is beautiful.

Manifestos - Me - What's Next?

I consider myself average. Frankly, know little about the world.
But now, I should thank my friends; seniors, batchmates, bloggers,
For they have made me realise how important it is to stay updated,
And it isn't that hard anyway. I just have to be interested. And take initiative.

Where is all this suddenly coming from?
Manifesto Night.
I saw great characters in most of the candidates..
And they made me believe, not just in myself, but in the future.
If one can be great, why can't I?
They light up hope in me that the world is going to be a better place one day.
They faced intimidating questions with patience and confidence.
AND, some stood by their principle like a rock, ain't nothing shaking 'em.

I admire the courage and maturity that these people have,
and wondered, do I have them?
Cause it's very very crucial, that
1) we are able to express our concerns
2) we are able to think maturely to solve them

And this is in relation to the topic of discussion in IELTS class,
How are we going to save the world?
Because apparently, the world is falling apart. The system is not working.
And like it or not, we are the one carrying the huge responsibility,

As my IELTS teacher said,
"My generation has obviously given up.
And it's up to your generation to clean up our mess.
Or, your kids won't have a world to live in."

Start thinking carefully about this, about the social gap, about the environment, about the capitalism system, current politics, corruptions, wars....

And religion. Islam.

Because 10 years from now insyaAllah,
we can't just sit back and see the world collapse.
Do something useful before time's up.

And that includes changing ourselves.
Hey, change is tough.
But only through darkness that we might see light again
- Slavoj Zizek

Man can always plan and try,
But the rest is up to Him.
So why do nothing?